Ok here it is... I am confused and I am sooo unhappy... I thought when I divorced my ex wife I would find another woman and settle down and be happy...
well that didnt happen LOL.. as you can imagine I did find another woman.. we were together for 7 yrs.. (ex wife has been married 3 times since the divorceLOL) but we were not ment to be together and we both knew it...so I left Albuquerque and moved back to hobbs... and here I am.. lonely... out of work... broke..(I will find a job.. but that just cures being broke)..
I can do what I want and all that but I do everything alone.. if i cook... I eat it alone I go to bed and get up alone... I cant just go out and FIND a woman and say hey I dont want to be alonfe LMAO... so I will just write ewat , sleep.. and on and on alone.
I have always known I will die alone.. dont ask how I know just that I know.. it really doest bother me that much.. but I dont want to live alone.. there is so much for me to share and I cant because I am alone....