D-O-N-E!! DONE!!!.....i'm tired of people getting upset at me because i say something sexual or something else and they get upset for it...because oops..i slipped out of my "gentleman" mode and had a bad day....but no...gentlemen aren't allowed to have bad days...well fuck that....i'm tired of jumping through peoples hops just to make them happy.....what about my happiness??....when do i get to be happy?...why can't people let me be happy for once in my god damned life?...looks like no one wants that.....i might actually stand on my own feet and not have to need people....but thats not allowed....i can't have the person i love, i can't have the happiness i DESERVE!!...i'm tired of living in darkness and surrounded by dispair....i want to live a life of love and happiness...but thats too much to ask....so i guess this is it....