I think negative emotions are at the forefront of my mind nowadays.
With the exception of a few people here (you know who you are) I don't feel a much happiness and joy, just anger, sadness, resentment.
Just had an informal meeting at work about some issues and could feel myself breaking down.
Not sure if it's a good thing to be feeling something, considering I used to think of myself as a robot, so maybe I'm evolving.
But don't think I like it...
It's been a while since I've done one of these, but I heard this earlier and it reminded me of this.
This song used to be a bit of an anthem to me, ad think it's regained that status somewhat, here it is;
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I am not alone
I live with the memories, regret is my home
This is my true freedom
Express all the feelings of what I've become
I watch the rising sun
[Chorus:]
I hope I find some peace today
It seems I've gone away
It seems I've lost myself
It seems I've really lost my way
It seems I've lost myself
It seems I've
Shed my skin
Are you ready for me
Or purge my love
Are you ready for me?
A bitter sinking feeling
Awake to the fact there's no going back
To this world in which I was living
I'm searching for something but found less than nothing
I watch the rising sun
[Chorus]
Are you ready for me
Or purge my love
Are you ready for me
Oh 'cause I'm dying to feel
What I have lost
Oh and what I was
All my life I've waited
Endless days have taken
Taken what made me free
Years have gone
I'm broken
Left the past unspoken
Those years
Oh they haunt me still
Shed my skin
Are you ready for me
Or purge my love
Are you ready for me
And shed my skin
All my love I'm waited
Endless days have taken
What made me free
Years have gone. I'm broken
Left the past unspoken
Those years, they haunt me still
Believe, when you lie
You will never need to recognize yourself
To deceive
To remove all chance of doubt and be received
With your lie
The deception is complete when you concede
And decide
To reject your lives, sacrificed to me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sin
All your belief cannot absolve your sin [x2]
Believe, when you lie
You will never need to recognize the source
Of deceit
To renew your faith in God
You must believe, in your lie
The redemption is complete when you conceive
And decline
To release your lives
Sacrificed to me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sin
All your belief cannot absolve your sin [x2]
Reap your life, like you want to recognize, all you've come to [x2]
Reap your life
Veiled in shadow
Recognize
Faces of the crucified
I can hear their screams tonight
Ever haunting me
Burn your lie into me
Penance can't absolve your sin, into me
Penance can't absolve your sin
All your belief cannot absolve your sin [x4]
It seems its over
When the ground is gone
The night is silent
Now i stand alone
When we are together
You make me feel alive
Bound forever
You're love feels right
[Pre-Chorus]
One more night comes to an end
One more fight for my friend
No more regrets.
[Chorus:]
Feels like I've known you for so long
My heart is blank without you
Tonight together
They're not alone
Just in you, I Confide
[Verse 2]
It isn't over
When you are gone
A destination still lies ahead
In silver moonlight
Our love is awake
Please forgive me
And don't walk away
[Pre-Chorus]
One more night comes to an end
One more fight for my friend
No more regrets.
[Chorus:]
Feels like I've known you for so long
My heart is blank without you
Tonight together
They're not alone
Just in you, I Confide
[Solo]
[Chorus x2]
Feels like I've known you for so long
My heart is blank without you
Tonight together
They're not alone
Just in you, I Confide
Take my hand now, I will lead you far away
From our homeland, to a place we shall not stay
But for moments, until your crying fades
And the haunting, of all those who paid
Hold your mother's memory
She was always there for you, but now she's gone
The longest day will it ever end
How long can men behave this way
The longest day has taken our loves
How long can wars remain
The morning sun rose, as it did like yesterday
A day like others, until the bombs fell our way
My son and wife died and left our small hometown in flames
There was no reason, to be hit by death's reign
Hold your mother's memory
She was always there for you
But now she's gone
The longest day will it ever end
How long can men behave this way
The longest day has taken our loves
How long can wars remain
I hold your hand
As you took your lasr breath
I could not save you
Nor my son from death
The longest day will it ever end
How long can men behave this way
The longest day has taken our loves
How long can wars remain
The longest day will it ever end
How long can men behave this way
The longest day has ruined our lives
Why do the wars remain
The blue pill opens your eyes
Is there a better way?
A new religion prescribed
To those without the faith
A hero holding a knife
And blood is not enough
Is it too late to go back?
Is it too late to go?
There's no-one here (there's no-one here)
And people everywhere (people everywhere)
You're on your own
Let's see if I'm hearing this right
Is it just that I should take
The never-ending supply
To carry out the dead
Your idols burn in the fire
The mob comes crawling up
I'm reclaiming my mind
Destroying everyone
There's no-one here (there's no-one here)
And people everywhere (people everywhere)
You're all alone
First you said that you would never leave me
Merry were my days
Then you told me life is never easy
And left without a trace
But how come I want you
Like the soil yearns for the rain
Won't you light up
Won't you light up my life
Let my soul breathe
Tell me wrong, tell me right
You're my mind cage
Like a mountain far away
You were always there
Dressed in summer white
You will never know how much I miss you
Or open to my fear
Find the maze I made my way through
And enter if you dare
How, how come I want you
Like the soil yearns for the rain
Won't you light up
Won't you light up my life
Let my soul breathe
Tell me wrong, tell me right
You're my mind cage
Like a mountain far away
You were always there
Dressed in summer white
Remember my name
And paint the darkness with your light
Go sing your song for all the broken hearted
Like Eden echoes in my head
The unforgiven gave you all
Won't you light up
Won't you light up my life
Let my soul breathe
Tell me wrong, tell me right
You're my mind cage
Like a mountain far away
You were always there
Dressed in summer white
You were always there to hold my hand
When times were hard to understand
But now the tides of time have turned
They keep changing
Seasons range, but you remained the same
A steady head, a sun to rain
You'll be the light that's shining bright
High above me
Autumn gold losing hold
We are leaves meant to fall
There is meaning to all that fades
Freezing winds were stayed by warming words
To touch your headling to the hurt
I'll treasure every lesson learned to the embers
Fire fails, blushes pale
We will, answer the call
There's a meaning to all our
Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fill the need that can leave us grieving alone
Frail is our beauty in the end
But all we count is sentiment
A memory stays to guise the way
and whisper
Don't lose sight, don't deny
We are leaves meant to fall,
there's a meaning to all our
Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fill the need that can leave us grieving alone
A symphony resounding in our minds
Guides us through what we knew
would come all a long
Sometimes I feel I don't have the words
Sometimes I feel I'm not being heard
And then I fear I'm feeling nothing more
Sometimes I feel I don't want this change
I think we all have to rearrange
And now I feel there's no one losing more
Seeds of eulogy to sow along with dreams
Fill the need that can leave us grieving alone
A symphony resounding in our minds
Guides us through
as you hear me
as you do,
as you need me
Making true
What we knew would come all along
Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again
When you are with me I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
Cause when you are with me I am free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice, My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again
My sacrifice.
A warm dry wind is all that breaks the silence,
The highways quiet scars across the land.
People lie, eyes closed, no longer dreaming,
The earth dies screaming.
Like scattered pebbles, cars lie silent waiting,
Oilless engines seized by dirt and sand.
Bodies hanging limp, no longer bleeding,
The earth dies screaming.
The earth dies screaming
The earth dies screaming
Your country needs you, lets strike up the band.
The earth dies screaming
The earth dies screaming
Despite all odds we must defend our land.
Half eaten meals lie rotting on the tables,
Money clutched within a boney hand.
Shutters down, the banks are not receiving,
The earth dies screaming.