i am afarid im gonna die in my brain surgery this next 2 weeks (whenever its scheduled) 24th or 31st. I realize that when they put me under, it may be the last time im alive. I have to go to a phsyical rehab to learn to talk and walk again afterwards (after im discharged from hosp). I will spend 4-5 days in ICU then 4 days or so on the medical floor. I will be gone from Fubarv up to 2 months. I want to get married to my BFF and g/f Metal Baby!!!! So she wont feel bad while im gone for that amount of time. Im scared. Is there anyone that can help me feel more positive about this?? Please talk to me. i need to talk to someone who can help me feel ok about this. Please keep me in your thpought. I need all the positive energy i can get. Especilly when they shave all my hair off--im gonna cry. Then donate it to Locks of Love. For kids with cancer anhd they can make a wig out of my hair for them. I have a wig already. So i guess im set. I dont want my hair gone. i have even written a will just in case, thats how serious this is.